Date : Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Time : 7:15 PM
Title :

sigh.life has been mundane.i don't know what to say about my life.

i hate myself for not putting in much effort to stay in contact with my old friends.but looking back.........it's not my fault alone.they themselves also did not put in much effort.but seriously,it hurts a lot when i think back of those years when we had so much fun tgt,all the thick and thins.......sigh.guess things will never be the same again.sucks to be me.

as for now,i shall get back to my mundane life...and start making plans with the long lost friends.even if things don't go as planned......nvm at least i can say that i've tried:) my conscience will be clear:)

ps:i'm quite happy that i only have a few true friends who i really care about and vice versa:)

Date : Monday, August 9, 2010
Time : 11:55 PM
Title :

fuck my life.

i really hate this character of mine.

when i finally cleared my head and decided that this is something that i wanna do,other things just have to keep crashing onto me and my mind and thus affect my decision.i really don't like it at all.

but at the same time,we both know that it's not gonna work out anymore.i'm really sorry but this is how it has to be done.

in the meantime,i shall use whatever free time i have to reflect on the reasons why i did all this,or maybe,sometimes we do things even without reasons at all...

i really hate myself for being so indecisive most of the time.fuck my life.




i secretly hope that i will meet my old friends very soon.sihui,i have lots of things to share with you.you're the only one whom i can think of right now......i need you:(

Date : Sunday, August 8, 2010
Time : 12:42 PM
Title :

found this in tumblr.so awesome!

Date : Saturday, August 7, 2010
Time : 12:19 AM
Title :

so many things has happened.really.so many things.

since this is my personal blog which only some friends whom i trust a lot can read this so i guess i'll just type whatever i really feel and all.


i have no idea why but i have a feeling that my relationship with thenna is getting nowhere at this point of time.maybe it's due to my school and sc stuffs.maybe it's due to his work schedule.maybe it's both.i really don't know.at first i'm been trying hard to keep this relationship going but as time goes by,i got tired eventually.like right now.i really have no more energy to keep holding on.i just feel like giving up.on us.i know this may sound harsh,but i don't know whether i still have feelings for him or not.god i really don't know what to do now.my heart says to tell him what i'm feeling right now.and see what will be his reaction.but he may break down and blame himself...which i don't want it to happen because it's not his fault that i'm feeling like this.

i really don't know what to do.