Date : Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Time : 9:59 PM
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yesterday i received a shocking call from him.he got into an accident and requested me to accompany him to the hospital.i didn't even know why but i fucking rejected him.all i knew was that i wanted him to see the doc and get it over and done with.i didn't understand why i turned down his request.until........

i gave a long thought about it and i slowly remembered that one day when i fall sick,i called him and he immediately rushed down and meet me.although he was super sleepy and had to work on the same night,he did not mind a single bit.he accompanied me from the time i waited for my turn to be registered until i paid the bill.i felt blessed with him around but at the same time,i knew i wasn't worth of his love and time.why did he choose to love me?why did he choose to spend him free time with me?why did he choose me to be the one for him?i have so many million questions inside my head.

but i think i have the answers now.to the most of my questions.like what he said,"i choose to love you because i know that you are the one for me.you will be the one who i will spend the rest of my life with,the one who i will have kids with and shower them with love,respect everything that we can.i want you to be a good mother to my children,and a good grandmother to my grandchildren.for that,i love you."

i know that no matter what i say can't prove much to how i really feel right now.but i'm certain how i feel.towards him.everything about him.although sometimes we disagree on some issues,we give each other time to reflect and cool down before settling down to talk things out.now,this is one thing which i'm proud of myself.i am glad that i am finally able to talk things out with the one i love.but it's the little disagreements and quiet moments that make us cherish our relationship.for that,i truly love him.



so after receiving his call,i prepared and we headed to sgh a&e.for freaking 4 hrs.we waited and waited and did all the necessary tests...and luckily everything was alright.honestly speaking,i was scared out of the hell but i had to be brave in front of him.i know i have to.so i was really delighted that everything was back to normal.we drove back home with the help of his friend,thank you friend:)

all in all,words can't,really can't,express how blessed and lucky i feel with him around in my life.although we don't get to meet everyday but it doesn't matter to me at all.really.as long as we have each other in our hearts.i believe that we'll be able to....over come anything and everything.trust,communication and honesty.that's all we need to keep our relationship going.

can't wait for 3rd july to arrive.camping at ecp and countdown for my 18th bday.i want you to be the first person to wish me happy birthday at 12am on the dot.because i know i won;t regret this,i will not:)

will be away for the student councilor's camp.fully packed this week.i miss my old friends.all of them...